17th of Sept. 2011 Saturday
Words can be like knives, they can cut you open. ~
~ Since I consistently believe that today is a new beginning, I decided to create a personal page for the unvoiced words at the back of my mind. I can no longer bring here what I’ve started in my multiply & diaries, but I can write thoughts, not for everyday, but at least for every too much sorrow felt, or for every unnoticed emotions on your face. <3
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Last night, 16th of Sept. 2011 Friday
: IT’S ALL I’VE GOT AFTER CROSSING A FOUNTAIN OF TEARS
A ridiculous night between my mom, him & I.
The feeling of being unwanted by the people you care for is
something to be sad about. I know, I cannot please everybody,
well I don’t live to please anyone by the way, it’s just,
they’re his family. So, I did what I should, gave what I could,
& offered my hands.
It’s for them to take it, it’s for them to ignore.
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Well, be posting random pictures from random events
in my life. I believe it’s never too late to do this. :) ♥
the oldest picture I have, I guess? Hahah =))) So nene. :P
the one that looks matured, but everyone liked.
idk why? =)) for me it looks matured talaga ehh?
of all, this one has been my favorite. :)
kahit muka pang ewan, ewan ko dn e? Hahah =))
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then, “biglaang short hair” - with tail! :P
this made everyone in the school including my teachers, call me “Princess Sarah” ;)
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Here is a pic. from Tricia’s 18th :D ♥
and this, with the Rico-Obiña family :)
~ I could not ask for more after this day.
Everyone’s smiles, hugs and “thank you” were surreal.
Nothing could ever compare ♥
- my mom. :)
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- 4th year grad. night ü
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- first days..first weeks of being a Tam. :) Hi FEU.
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- I love you mommy, y’know you’re the greatest. The one my siblings & I couldn’t live without. ♥
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- ‘cause I wasn’t so sure.. :)
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- Yeahh, I was legally blonde.. :D
- ‘til I get bored & decided to cut it this short </3
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- It was coool, though. It was coool, I thought. ;))
- I remember the first day I loved my colored hair ♥
( parang prof lang si ateng, baaahaaaa :D )
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- I really loved it. I loved it this much.. ♥
( tas jeje attacks =P )
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- so much..♥
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- I started to love making faces with my hair.. :) >:| :D ;) ;D :| ~.~
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- & love this shot with it, when suddenly I realized..
everyone’s hair in the campus was intensely colored, including mine. & I don’t like it..
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- so I made it black. :) I always wanted to be the girl who’s too diff. to describe. :) & besides I have this photo.. you won’t believe how it gotten into my nerves the day I saw it. Even my friends & ever’yone who saw it told that you’re such..you’re such a y’know. We all know. ;))
ɹǝƃuɐƃlǝddop ǝʇɐɹǝdsǝp ǝɥʇ ʇǝǝɯ - sorry that I judged, it’s just, it was too cliche to call it a “co-incidence” well, anyway, I’ll just pray. ♥
Yeaaahhh. \m/
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- with Charmaine. I’ll miss this Bulaceña ;))
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- my twin, I’ll miss her more. ♥
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- & this is how we roll. =)) more of us on my fb account. :)
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- my favorite nose expression :P
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- ;D
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- my sister, uhuh. My mom! :)
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- WOAW! Believe it or not, katabi ko sya sa jeep papuntang morayta. :P loljoke =))) the dp’s dp.
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:)
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- Okay? So, I’m tryin’ hard to be a bunny and..What the hell is Maeanne doing there? :P Hm? =)))
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- really adore this, maybe about 4ft-mirror @Angela’s :)
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- Sorry, I only got Kim Chiu’s lips & not Angelina Jolie’s :-x ;) :-*
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& that’s whyyy I smiiilee :)
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- Say hi to my ever childhood idol :D
- She’s totally grown up, but she’ll always be the girl I look up to, my wonderwall. ♥
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- the one with the black&white layers. intermission number with dance club members, miss dancing. </3
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: An Indian for a day.
- With our teacher, Ms En, the one who taught the dance steps & my co-dancers. United Nation, twenty ten. It’s an Indian costume for Indian dance, of course! :)
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- Grad. practice, I guess? or something to do with CAT.
Oh kung ano man yun, haha walalng, pinag-iinitan nila yung shoes ko eh? =))
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- God knows, I really miss my hair.. </3 My “Elena-inspired” hair. </3
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: There would be nothing more frustrating feeling than knowing your capabilities, and yet failing your subject/s. I feel sorry about my laziness, my procrastination. It all made me do it. I don’t wanna be controlled by those, not anymore in my life. Lord, I’m asking for you guidance & forgiveness. Allow me to do what I ought to do, and be better this coming sem. I love my life. I know what I can do. Impossible is nothing. ~ ♥
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I talked to her today. No, let me re edit, I messaged her today. Glad she replied. I was so excited that finally, we would be able to talk..until she didn’t come.
Of course, pretty disappointing. I’ve been waiting for it. But it’s still fine ‘cause I’d still be waiting. I have no reason to averse her. In fact, I believe what my friends told me, “she’s nice” yeah, I know you(she) would see me being sarcastic, but, I do. I really do.
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I wanna thank astrology. It helped me a lot not only to understand what I can’t explain within me, but understanding as well the people’s act and hidden behavior, toward everyone.
~ My sincerest apology for being too importunate, I was guessing it’s how you think of me right now. Hindi na’ko magpapaka-plastic, I hated you, of course, but it lead nowhere, and hating someone always bothers me, so I decided to be more broad about the situation. I have nothing to abhor about, and if I were really abhor, then I must follow what they say “face your fear” right? I’m just truly eager to help ourselves and to settle everything while we still can. I positively believe we can. So there..
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23rd of 3rd ‘12
: too many events had passed, too many tears, too sad & too glad
1st* So, here. FAILURES NO MOOORE! ;D am not satisfied though, am glad I kept my words to myself. Uggh ;D
2nd* As much as I wanted to be single, I can’t, he doesn’t want an ending. There’s a part of me wanting to be free, but there are too many pieces of me wanting him around. So, how’s that? Am fret that I might only want “us” because I got used to it. I am so..unsure. I mean. fvck. Yeah, am this shaky. am this bipolar. like I wanted him now, but tomo. morning I wanted to be all by myself. it’s too hard, too difficult to bear with. Yeaaahh ~
3rd* My elder sis is soon to be a mother, sooo happy for her. We all are, ‘cause she used to be the “panganay” among all of us, cousins. She works now in SG, but as she was based here in the Phil. for a week, we tend to go out, have a date a lot. And it’s just, remarkable. We’ve never been that close, I guess I knew now why we didn’t get along back when I was younger. I would prob’ly be clueless of her stories then. But now that I am this, we’ve shared our own stories, experiences and had girl talk and relationship issues and anything. :) So adorable of our bonding moments. ♥
& I owe all of these, to You Lord. Thank you. :)
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